So actually i wanted to post about my recent life, but thn come to think of it, its nothing special so i lazy to type a whole long thing. Recent happenings are, met with sec sch fren to walk walk at town, met jas and sl have dinner and walk at bishan park, invited to sl's sis bday chalet, went to return books with the company of sl. okay i think no more. I'm not gonna say the details coz its uninteresting to type.
2 more weeks to reopen sch. Must work hard.
Sunday 30 September 2012
Wednesday 26 September 2012
Fav food
These is some of my fav food!!
SHIN RAMYUN~~~!!! This is one of my favorite instant noodle. The type that i eat everyday i also wun mind 1. REALLY DAMN NICE!!!! A bit spicy spicy, but not very spicy also. Just nice. And i can't take very spicy food. And i love to eat CUP NOODLES too. except for tomyum.
Nxt will be SUSHI~
Small small cute cute. I like tamago sushi, unagi sushi and tuna sushi. I think still got others. But that 3 is my top fav.
Sandwich.
I like to toast 1 side of the bread, along with a honey baked ham and a slice of cheese on top. Thn will some sort of melt the cheese also, thn put a normal bread on top. WALA~ grilled honey baked cheesy sandwich~
halfboil egg with bread and kopi for breakfast.
Seldom eat dimsum for breakfast coz they are expensive.
Chicken rice. Actually i'm quite fond of eating chicken rice, but must be nice 1, not like those selfish give little little chicken 1.
Chocolate. Although i dun like to eat sweets, chocolate is an exception~
Cheese roti prata. I just love things with cheese. and Cheese plus curry actually not bad. Double the stickyness.
Western food. Although they are expensive, i dun mind eating them once in a while.
Burger king. I just love their onion rings~~ And the mushroom grill chicken burger not bad. Oh and the double fish burger too!
Still got somemore, but i will stop here.
SHIN RAMYUN~~~!!! This is one of my favorite instant noodle. The type that i eat everyday i also wun mind 1. REALLY DAMN NICE!!!! A bit spicy spicy, but not very spicy also. Just nice. And i can't take very spicy food. And i love to eat CUP NOODLES too. except for tomyum.
Nxt will be SUSHI~
Small small cute cute. I like tamago sushi, unagi sushi and tuna sushi. I think still got others. But that 3 is my top fav.
Sandwich.
I like to toast 1 side of the bread, along with a honey baked ham and a slice of cheese on top. Thn will some sort of melt the cheese also, thn put a normal bread on top. WALA~ grilled honey baked cheesy sandwich~
halfboil egg with bread and kopi for breakfast.
Seldom eat dimsum for breakfast coz they are expensive.
Chicken rice. Actually i'm quite fond of eating chicken rice, but must be nice 1, not like those selfish give little little chicken 1.
Chocolate. Although i dun like to eat sweets, chocolate is an exception~
Cheese roti prata. I just love things with cheese. and Cheese plus curry actually not bad. Double the stickyness.
Western food. Although they are expensive, i dun mind eating them once in a while.
Burger king. I just love their onion rings~~ And the mushroom grill chicken burger not bad. Oh and the double fish burger too!
Still got somemore, but i will stop here.
Monday 24 September 2012
Reflection
Recently i have been thinking a lot about myself. "What haven i been doing?"
Its year 2 alrdy, but i have been like slacking thru all the lessons. Studying last min. Although i passed everything. My GPA didn't really raised. As compared to most of my friends, mine is like completely fail. As i see others working so hard to achieve an A or at least B, having high goals, while i'm here like a failure who only knows how to complain that teachers are useless and didn't even tried to study on my own until a week b4 exams.
My 1st GPA wasn't even that great. I still rmb it was checked after the chalet with sec sch frens. At the last day, everyone was checking their GPAs, they were all very high as compared to mine. Though i was very happy that i got 2.3 back then coz i have zero physic backgrd and didn't failed anything. But now i really regret i didn't work harder and lying to myself to say engineering is difficult so its okay if i got this score. If my classmate got get As for all modules, why can't i? They are doing the same math, learning the same formulas, memorizing the same theory.
I also been getting annoyed easily. Little things really annoys me and my temper just went up. And getting sad over little stuff, being negative as well. Like overreacting over small things that are getting on my nerves. Doing/saying things without thinking. I'm sure i irritated some ppl. I'm really really sorry if i had make you all angry. Yes i had no excuses for my actions, i'm just being a spoiled brat.
And after ard 2 more years i will be going to the army, and after that, i can't see my future anymore. I dun really know what i want to do. Seeing my friends having goals in their life really makes me thinking too. Some want to be weapon specialist, teacher, biology, game designer, etc. Okay maybe not so far yet, i noe a lot of my frens are aiming to go to uni. For me i dun even noe what uni are there, and always confused over the names. I noe with result like mine, i can't go anywhere. So i must take not going uni in consider for my future. Means coming out from army, what will i do? Maybe i could work in some factory/office? If possible, i will like to learn japanese and both traditional and CG drawings and work in some CG design or manga company if out there in the work have. I dunno if like e.g. I always see ppl recruiting translators, editors, animators,etc, i dunno if is do for free or really as work. I know i dun have what it takes to be a good artist, but i hope its not too late though. And i sucks at languages so translators may be too hard.
None of these are really related to engineering, but i dun think its that bad to walk the engineering path either. In the time now, almost everything is mechantronics. Your car, plane, rollercoastor, and i really hope i could go to japan and work at some company that designs robots. I know there are also other countries, but i just love japan, even those i had nvr been there b4. Maybe its becoz japan was the 1st country i know which got 4 seasons and i think its amazing. If i really want to do this, i need to work extra hard to be able to achieve this. And the both jobs i wrote above, does it counted as my dream/goal? Haha
I need to clear my mind as well. As i said above that a lot of things annoys me recently, of coz i will have rude thinking like cursing ppl to die/accident. Being rude to ppl in my mind, scolding them in my mind. And i had a lot of negative thoughts like saying things cmi even thought i nvr tried. These kinds of thinking will surely lead me to troubles and ppl around me to hate me as what's in your mind will lead to yours actions right? I want to say sorry again for those ppl who i had been very rude with.
Alright, this is just a small reflection. Maintain calm, control my temper, may patience be with me.
Its year 2 alrdy, but i have been like slacking thru all the lessons. Studying last min. Although i passed everything. My GPA didn't really raised. As compared to most of my friends, mine is like completely fail. As i see others working so hard to achieve an A or at least B, having high goals, while i'm here like a failure who only knows how to complain that teachers are useless and didn't even tried to study on my own until a week b4 exams.
My 1st GPA wasn't even that great. I still rmb it was checked after the chalet with sec sch frens. At the last day, everyone was checking their GPAs, they were all very high as compared to mine. Though i was very happy that i got 2.3 back then coz i have zero physic backgrd and didn't failed anything. But now i really regret i didn't work harder and lying to myself to say engineering is difficult so its okay if i got this score. If my classmate got get As for all modules, why can't i? They are doing the same math, learning the same formulas, memorizing the same theory.
I also been getting annoyed easily. Little things really annoys me and my temper just went up. And getting sad over little stuff, being negative as well. Like overreacting over small things that are getting on my nerves. Doing/saying things without thinking. I'm sure i irritated some ppl. I'm really really sorry if i had make you all angry. Yes i had no excuses for my actions, i'm just being a spoiled brat.
And after ard 2 more years i will be going to the army, and after that, i can't see my future anymore. I dun really know what i want to do. Seeing my friends having goals in their life really makes me thinking too. Some want to be weapon specialist, teacher, biology, game designer, etc. Okay maybe not so far yet, i noe a lot of my frens are aiming to go to uni. For me i dun even noe what uni are there, and always confused over the names. I noe with result like mine, i can't go anywhere. So i must take not going uni in consider for my future. Means coming out from army, what will i do? Maybe i could work in some factory/office? If possible, i will like to learn japanese and both traditional and CG drawings and work in some CG design or manga company if out there in the work have. I dunno if like e.g. I always see ppl recruiting translators, editors, animators,etc, i dunno if is do for free or really as work. I know i dun have what it takes to be a good artist, but i hope its not too late though. And i sucks at languages so translators may be too hard.
None of these are really related to engineering, but i dun think its that bad to walk the engineering path either. In the time now, almost everything is mechantronics. Your car, plane, rollercoastor, and i really hope i could go to japan and work at some company that designs robots. I know there are also other countries, but i just love japan, even those i had nvr been there b4. Maybe its becoz japan was the 1st country i know which got 4 seasons and i think its amazing. If i really want to do this, i need to work extra hard to be able to achieve this. And the both jobs i wrote above, does it counted as my dream/goal? Haha
I need to clear my mind as well. As i said above that a lot of things annoys me recently, of coz i will have rude thinking like cursing ppl to die/accident. Being rude to ppl in my mind, scolding them in my mind. And i had a lot of negative thoughts like saying things cmi even thought i nvr tried. These kinds of thinking will surely lead me to troubles and ppl around me to hate me as what's in your mind will lead to yours actions right? I want to say sorry again for those ppl who i had been very rude with.
Alright, this is just a small reflection. Maintain calm, control my temper, may patience be with me.
Sunday 23 September 2012
Ao no exorcist Characters (Random drawings 9)
Here's the picture of what i drew. They are not my idea, i just used it to practice drawings.
The most right seems to be a bit odd one out, so i changed and drew another character.
Saturday 22 September 2012
How ppl see me?
For years i wonder how ppl see me? Like am i irritating? Am i uninteresting? Am i boring?
U know, some roles of ppl are like the main characters. And for me, i'm mostly just an unimportant supporting character. And i'm just there. I dun really have any existence.
Sometimes i feel jealous when i see my friends always having someone to text or msn or chat with. Even my bro is like skyping with his friends every night. Some ppl are like, just no need to do anything, will have ppl auto come to talk to them. Just like that.
While some ppl like me with no one auto come talk to u, not matter how hard we tried to have a conv with others. The conv dun last. The way they text with others and me is total opposite. The msg are short and usually just an okay or oh or lol or sometimes it just leave us hanging there. Not sure is too busy, or just dun wan to talk to a person like me. And i know i will be irritating to keep trying to start up a conv.
This is not recently or what, its like for years its always like that. I dunno if i got communication problems or what. But i think is just ppl dun come to talk to me is coz i am guangyi. I do feel lonely sometimes, but i believe i will be able to achieve the state whereby i dun do need to communicate anymore, as in i dun feel lonely even without anyone.
U know, some roles of ppl are like the main characters. And for me, i'm mostly just an unimportant supporting character. And i'm just there. I dun really have any existence.
Sometimes i feel jealous when i see my friends always having someone to text or msn or chat with. Even my bro is like skyping with his friends every night. Some ppl are like, just no need to do anything, will have ppl auto come to talk to them. Just like that.
While some ppl like me with no one auto come talk to u, not matter how hard we tried to have a conv with others. The conv dun last. The way they text with others and me is total opposite. The msg are short and usually just an okay or oh or lol or sometimes it just leave us hanging there. Not sure is too busy, or just dun wan to talk to a person like me. And i know i will be irritating to keep trying to start up a conv.
This is not recently or what, its like for years its always like that. I dunno if i got communication problems or what. But i think is just ppl dun come to talk to me is coz i am guangyi. I do feel lonely sometimes, but i believe i will be able to achieve the state whereby i dun do need to communicate anymore, as in i dun feel lonely even without anyone.
Bits of my childhood
Alright this post will be me trying to rmb any bits of my childhood. So whatever comes in mind i write here. To be honest i dun really rmb what i did as a child, coz most is very boring stuff. So here it go..
Running for yellow house for p1 and p2. rest of the years sit there watch.
Played super mario until final stage which is 8 i think thn beat it 1 time only.
Contra, rainbow island, super mario was my fav.
This current house i'm living in is my 2nd house, i dun have any memories on the 1st 1.
Play catching in the artroom.
Some "Think they prefect very big" Prefect makes me hate prefect. That's why when i was chosen for selection, i gave troll answers.
1st qns,"If recess time is up, a student still eating, what will you do?"
"Call him eat faster"
"What if they dun listen?"
"Call teacher"
"What if no teacher?"(This qns too wtf liao)
"No teacher how to have school?"
2nd qns,"If u are a teacher and brings ur students to hiking and one of them is missing, what will you do?"
"Find him"
"What if cannot find?"
"But this select for prefect right? Why become teacher?"
Seriously i still rmb, those qns were retarded, and i was interviewed by 2 teachers and the head prefect(Which i dun like him)
Catching tappod.
Catch fish in drain.
A friend gave me fishes.
Fav toy was lego.
Always wanted to see snow. And got confused why here no snow.
Every year, teachers complain about my english.
Learnt to ride bicycle in K2.
Played bayblade with other kids in the play grd.
Fav cartoon was pokemon, doraemon.
Nvr understood trading cards game until i'm older( like yugioh and duelmaster)
Got my spec at K2
Amazed by battleon
Chess club in pri sch. Met some retarded players, as in not noob, is lose alrdy they like become retarded mode and start playing with the pieces.
Forced to join a chess competition at p6, lost at 1st round coz its too troublesome.
Fav food at pri sch was hor fun.
Got lost in a supermarket, starts crying. (This 1 i very very young, but i still rmb)
Fed a dog bone.
Bro always cry from p2-5. As in very little things he jiu cry liao, causing my relatives always say i bully him. Until i sian alrdy. But he still can fight back when younger thn p2, not sure why when he at p2, he always cry.
At young, i do hate my bro coz he always cry and causing all my relative to think i'm a big bully. Somehow got used to it, and since everyone thinks like that, might as well bully until he stop crying.
Discovered how to fold a shuriken by myself. Its actually made by this china guy, but he dun wan teach ppl. So i unfolded it and learn myself muhahaha.
Taught everyone how to fold during p5 for game station in some carnival.
(The game is throw the shuriken and hit the cans)
Some of my classmates are complain king
Bronze all the way for nafa.
Joined at a helper for a dance competition, which is to remove the chairs halfway when my classmates are dancing. Purpose is to skip class and follow the dancers go practice.
My class got 1st.
Always sleep at 10 latest 1030
Actually studied for Spelling of english and chinese.
Watch Tv most of the time since i dun have much toys to play with. Resulting in my poor eye sight now.
Neopets are pretty boring to me.
Mom sent me and my bro for art lessons when i'm p5-6. Not sure why, but i came up with a theory when i'm older that is she always see ppl sending their children for classes and piano or something, so she sent us to go art lessons since its cheap.
Okay i will stop here. These are some of my childhood moments. Dun really have any epic de, just very normal.
Running for yellow house for p1 and p2. rest of the years sit there watch.
Played super mario until final stage which is 8 i think thn beat it 1 time only.
Contra, rainbow island, super mario was my fav.
This current house i'm living in is my 2nd house, i dun have any memories on the 1st 1.
Play catching in the artroom.
Some "Think they prefect very big" Prefect makes me hate prefect. That's why when i was chosen for selection, i gave troll answers.
1st qns,"If recess time is up, a student still eating, what will you do?"
"Call him eat faster"
"What if they dun listen?"
"Call teacher"
"What if no teacher?"(This qns too wtf liao)
"No teacher how to have school?"
2nd qns,"If u are a teacher and brings ur students to hiking and one of them is missing, what will you do?"
"Find him"
"What if cannot find?"
"But this select for prefect right? Why become teacher?"
Seriously i still rmb, those qns were retarded, and i was interviewed by 2 teachers and the head prefect(Which i dun like him)
Catching tappod.
Catch fish in drain.
A friend gave me fishes.
Fav toy was lego.
Always wanted to see snow. And got confused why here no snow.
Every year, teachers complain about my english.
Learnt to ride bicycle in K2.
Played bayblade with other kids in the play grd.
Fav cartoon was pokemon, doraemon.
Nvr understood trading cards game until i'm older( like yugioh and duelmaster)
Got my spec at K2
Amazed by battleon
Chess club in pri sch. Met some retarded players, as in not noob, is lose alrdy they like become retarded mode and start playing with the pieces.
Forced to join a chess competition at p6, lost at 1st round coz its too troublesome.
Fav food at pri sch was hor fun.
Got lost in a supermarket, starts crying. (This 1 i very very young, but i still rmb)
Fed a dog bone.
Bro always cry from p2-5. As in very little things he jiu cry liao, causing my relatives always say i bully him. Until i sian alrdy. But he still can fight back when younger thn p2, not sure why when he at p2, he always cry.
At young, i do hate my bro coz he always cry and causing all my relative to think i'm a big bully. Somehow got used to it, and since everyone thinks like that, might as well bully until he stop crying.
Discovered how to fold a shuriken by myself. Its actually made by this china guy, but he dun wan teach ppl. So i unfolded it and learn myself muhahaha.
Taught everyone how to fold during p5 for game station in some carnival.
(The game is throw the shuriken and hit the cans)
Some of my classmates are complain king
Bronze all the way for nafa.
Joined at a helper for a dance competition, which is to remove the chairs halfway when my classmates are dancing. Purpose is to skip class and follow the dancers go practice.
My class got 1st.
Always sleep at 10 latest 1030
Actually studied for Spelling of english and chinese.
Watch Tv most of the time since i dun have much toys to play with. Resulting in my poor eye sight now.
Neopets are pretty boring to me.
Mom sent me and my bro for art lessons when i'm p5-6. Not sure why, but i came up with a theory when i'm older that is she always see ppl sending their children for classes and piano or something, so she sent us to go art lessons since its cheap.
Okay i will stop here. These are some of my childhood moments. Dun really have any epic de, just very normal.
Friday 21 September 2012
My existence
Looking at my keyboard. Got lots of stuff in my mind but i dunno how to express it out.
People often says, show if u are sad, show if u are angry.
Actually, i always got confused with my sad thoughts and stopped thinking about it.
Some common qns always comes to my mind when i'm thinking should i be sad/angry.
Do i have any rights? But the thing dun really concern me right? Its just a small thing there is no need to S/A over it. It should be a misunderstanding right? and etc.
So the thing i'm sad about now, i dun really need to be sad right? I mean it happened a lot times before, shouldn't i already prepared to foresee this outcome everytime i try? Ya its normal, nothing to be sad about.
Thursday 20 September 2012
Who read?
Actually i'm very curious if there is anyone reading my blog. Please post something >>>
or tell me in other ways.
LOL i'm just curious
or tell me in other ways.
LOL i'm just curious
Five senses
Sight, taste, smell, touch, hear. These are the 5 senses we have. Oh and i believe the sixth sense is depend on your alertness and how great ur 5 sense is. E.g. Some animal can sense the rain/storm b4 it really come. I believe their strong sense of hearing in wind and smell of atmosphere enable to let them know.
So today topic will be, Which of these 5 senses i dun wan to lose the most. So for me, it will be my sight.
If i lose my other senses, e.g
hearing, i can communicated with words on paper.
taste, will i think i still can survive in a more boring way
touch, means i feel no pain? okay i dun understand losing sense of touch
smell, same as tase
But if i lose my sight, i cannot see a lot of things, and i will live in darkness for my life.
There are a lot of things i wanted to see.
Snow falling from the sky was something i always wanted to see from as a child til now. So b4 i gone blind or die, i want to see snow at least once. I dun wan fake snow. That is the only child's dream i had. I will fulfilled it one day. And i will build snowman! Muahahaha!
So today topic will be, Which of these 5 senses i dun wan to lose the most. So for me, it will be my sight.
If i lose my other senses, e.g
hearing, i can communicated with words on paper.
taste, will i think i still can survive in a more boring way
touch, means i feel no pain? okay i dun understand losing sense of touch
smell, same as tase
But if i lose my sight, i cannot see a lot of things, and i will live in darkness for my life.
There are a lot of things i wanted to see.
Snow falling from the sky was something i always wanted to see from as a child til now. So b4 i gone blind or die, i want to see snow at least once. I dun wan fake snow. That is the only child's dream i had. I will fulfilled it one day. And i will build snowman! Muahahaha!
Wednesday 19 September 2012
Tuesday 18 September 2012
Escape
One of the reasons why i love anime is becoz it allows me to escape from the reality world. I rmb how i started to get addicted to anime, is becoz of something that made me depressed(I'm not going to say what it is) and i keep thinking about it. Soooo~ I just watched a lot of anime, and it really divert my thoughts away. I really love watching random comedy anime, coz they do really stupid stuff. Like nijijou, daily lives of high school boys, now got 1 called Kill me baby also very funny and cute.
When i watch anime, even my mum call me i also dunno.
So everyone have their own ways to cheer themselves up.
And i dun just watch anime whenever i'm sad. I watch it almost everyday, and yes, i had too much free time too, dun jealous.
When i watch anime, even my mum call me i also dunno.
So everyone have their own ways to cheer themselves up.
And i dun just watch anime whenever i'm sad. I watch it almost everyday, and yes, i had too much free time too, dun jealous.
Sunday 16 September 2012
Random question
Would u prefer something u had for 5 years or something new and interesting and wun last?
Normal sunday
Hi, i'm here blogging coz i kept dying on blackshot since my Sniper expires T^T. I'm not good with rifle. Snipers are the best. OneShotKill.
So last wed had steamboat with friends. Bought too much ingredient so a lot left over. Got two special guest, Seng Hwee and wj gf aka Jessica. Zx,shaw, josh, wj stayed over. We watch 4 movies st8 to morning until everyone is sleeping.
I dun think there will be any outings anymore since everyone going fly japan or thailand or work or preset-ed date.
Sooooo.. I not doing nothing during these days. I have been coming up with a story line for my manga. Well its only in my head, i haven done any paper work, gonna start tonight! Ermm u can say that i had nothing better to do also, and YES i had nothing better to do okay? so i had 3 weeks b4 school. Lets see my holiday plans.
-Try to learn japanese
-Learn how to make onigiri(which i tried and i wan to prefect it)
-Learn to draw manga/anime
-Do more exercise(be it gym or going MMA)
-Complete watching Clannad, and anime i couldn't watch coz wasted time studying
-Complete playing Blazblue, AC1, Fate stay night.
-Complete reading Yankee-kun to Megane-chan and Mahou sensei Negima
-At least 1 dinner tgt with the sec sch friends
-At least 1 outing tgt with the sec sch friends
-One day shop for new Tshirts
-Go to Zixing house play guitar hero
-Go to Shawleong house to play naruto
-Go Ruwen house sit sit
-Persuade my parents to buy PS3
-Wish for money to drop down from the sky
So the strikeout are things that i dun wan to do anymore. So the 3 weeks, i will be staying at home sleep, eat, watch anime, blackshot, draw. Yup i dun really have anyone to ask me out. Yes, i have no money either. And dun keep telling me go work. Coz when i go work, i wun be free, and same thing, no outing. Yes dun start coming to lecture me, recently a lot ppl been trying to lecture me with their big reasonings and shit. Ya so fuck off. I'm enjoying my life in a cheap and relaxing way. A lot of ppl are saying my life is boring and shit. Well, i like this kind of peaceful life.
So last wed had steamboat with friends. Bought too much ingredient so a lot left over. Got two special guest, Seng Hwee and wj gf aka Jessica. Zx,shaw, josh, wj stayed over. We watch 4 movies st8 to morning until everyone is sleeping.
I dun think there will be any outings anymore since everyone going fly japan or thailand or work or preset-ed date.
Sooooo.. I not doing nothing during these days. I have been coming up with a story line for my manga. Well its only in my head, i haven done any paper work, gonna start tonight! Ermm u can say that i had nothing better to do also, and YES i had nothing better to do okay? so i had 3 weeks b4 school. Lets see my holiday plans.
-Try to learn japanese
-Learn how to make onigiri(which i tried and i wan to prefect it)
-Learn to draw manga/anime
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-Complete watching Clannad, and anime i couldn't watch coz wasted time studying
-Complete playing Blazblue, AC1, Fate stay night.
-Complete reading Yankee-kun to Megane-chan and Mahou sensei Negima
-At least 1 outing tgt with the sec sch friends
-One day shop for new Tshirts
-Go to Shawleong house to play naruto
-Go Ruwen house sit sit
-Persuade my parents to buy PS3
-Wish for money to drop down from the sky
So the strikeout are things that i dun wan to do anymore. So the 3 weeks, i will be staying at home sleep, eat, watch anime, blackshot, draw. Yup i dun really have anyone to ask me out. Yes, i have no money either. And dun keep telling me go work. Coz when i go work, i wun be free, and same thing, no outing. Yes dun start coming to lecture me, recently a lot ppl been trying to lecture me with their big reasonings and shit. Ya so fuck off. I'm enjoying my life in a cheap and relaxing way. A lot of ppl are saying my life is boring and shit. Well, i like this kind of peaceful life.
Tuesday 11 September 2012
Monday 10 September 2012
Two choices
When you are forced to choose between two choices, flipping a coin, seems to be effective.
Its not because that it always seem to give the right choice.
It is when the moment you flip up the coin.
You will suddenly realize what is it you wished for the result to be.
Its not because that it always seem to give the right choice.
It is when the moment you flip up the coin.
You will suddenly realize what is it you wished for the result to be.
Sunday 9 September 2012
Friday 7 September 2012
Fear
This post is a random post about Fear. But it is not those chim chim post about the chimnology of fear, just some of my own fear and some stories.
Firstly, although i'm 18 now, i'm still scare of lizard and cockroach. Yes, pathetic right? But i'm still scare of them. Dun ever ask me for help in killing cockroach.
I can still rmb this very wtf moment. One night i was sleeping(that time my bed was beside the window), It was raining, so very cooling and nice to sleep and stuff. So i woke up in the middle of the night, just staring into space. AND SUDDENLY! I heard a sound and saw something flying thru the window. I was like wtf? Thn i feel something crawl over my legs. Due to the shock, i fall of my bed, rush to on the lights to check again. I flip over my blankets( i always had 2), Thn saw the cockroach about the fly up but fail. In like 0.1 sec i rush to my parents room, ask my father help me catch cockroach in the middle of the night. The look on my father's face was like, wtf? Cockroach nia. Thn he help me catch liao thn throw away. LOL Okay thats the funny story.
For lizard, i dun really have any story, its from very young i jiu scare liao, okay i bet everyone had something they are scare naturally.
If someone was to ask me if i'm scare of ghost and stuff. 1st i want to say, i actually believe in ghost. If i would to see 1, yes i will be scare, but i'm still able to walk in the dark by myself. But if u bring me to those themepark haunted house, yes i will be scared.
Believe it or not, i used to be fking scare in the dark, even with ppl around. whenever i sleep, i must have a mini light on. All the way until p6 or sec 1 i think, until my mini light spoil. Okay i dunno is used to it for having light or just scare of the dark. Reason i had the light is i rmb i always seen shadow like moving like that.(It was actually the eyes adjusting to the darkness)
So now i'm actually okay in walking in darkness by myself.
Got this scout camp during when i'm sec 3. Only got 4 of us jr, Me, bryan, matt and 1 more sec 2 jr(i forgot his name). So its organised by my senior. LOL i noe 4 only like pathetic only. So at the 2nd night, there is they called "The Confident Walk" Sounds cool huh? Its actually just go to macritchie reservoir and walk the path alone. Without lights and anything. Just yourself, walk. The seniors are the check points, there are 5. I'm the second 1 to walk since matt need to go home 1st. So the funny thing is, as i walk, after like 10 mins, i haven reach any of my senior yet, like wtf? thn later i saw, my 1st check point. The 1st thing the came in my mind was not like "Heng ar, i tot i lost" and rather "Wapiang eh? So long thn check point 1? Fuck siao liao la" Sooooo, Total Walking time, 40+ fking min alone in the forest walking... LIKE WTF? U serious? The path they planned is so fucking long, that even 1 walk also not scare liao, its like "Endurance Walk". And apparently, I only reached 4 checkpoint, why? Coz the senior at the 4th checkpoint went to shit. -.-
So this tradition like pass down, every year camp will go at least once( i hope its still passing down)
So it actually change to become a 10min walk after my batch. So as i become the senior, we still need to participate, as check point. I rmb i'm the second checkpoint. Scared? NO! Its DAMN FKING SIAN. Alone in the forest FOR 40 FKING MIN AGAIN! AS A CHECK POINT! Wtf man.
Public speaking. Somehow, i'm still quite scare of presenting in front of everyone. I rmb sec 3, need to present about our own chosen career. So i'm the 3rd 1 to present in 32 ppl -.-. Honestly my presentation is just a plain simple and fast 1. Dun even have 10min. 3min can settle everything. So apparently, Being the 1st few, there are somehow invited guest from MOE? And i rmb this lady from MOE at the back comer of the room(Sit there like purposely want ppl to talk loudly) ask a lot of Jiaowei qns. And that's not the problem, the problem is, She HERSELF, TALK SO FKING SOFT!? I'm like HUH 3 times liao, i really cannot hear what she ask(plus i got a bit deaf ear), thn i ask andrew. I rmb during that time, i really panic, coz the project worth a lot of marks, and my english kao that 1 liao. ANNNDDDDD In the end i still failed -.- Like WTF? I think i'm the only 1 that fail this fking project lor. Up to now i still think is that MOE lady fault -.-
Lastly, i dunno if this counts, but i really cannot stand blood, or rather, ppl kana torture to death. E.g the movie SAW. I rmb sec 2, after exams, the teacher showed us this movie, coz classmate say want. So this is my 1st gore movie. Its was really shocking to me, i somehow didn't feel like puking, but i that my eyes closed most of the time, I rmb the 1st scene was this person tied down, a swinging blade just Cut him slowly in half. Like WTF? Seriously disturbing and i even couldn't sleep for nights. I really dunno how is this kind of show fun to watch. Its just plain killing and not even normal stab in your stomach kill, ITS FREAKING TORTURE! If its ghost movie, got blood i still understand, But this is just kill for the joy and fun, and some ppl actually enjoy it? I dun understand. Oh, and gore anime are different, dun ever mix anime and real life tgt, thanks.
Yup, these are a few things i'm scare of. I dun normally share this with ppl, but i just blog it coz i'm bored and this topic came in my mind.
Firstly, although i'm 18 now, i'm still scare of lizard and cockroach. Yes, pathetic right? But i'm still scare of them. Dun ever ask me for help in killing cockroach.
I can still rmb this very wtf moment. One night i was sleeping(that time my bed was beside the window), It was raining, so very cooling and nice to sleep and stuff. So i woke up in the middle of the night, just staring into space. AND SUDDENLY! I heard a sound and saw something flying thru the window. I was like wtf? Thn i feel something crawl over my legs. Due to the shock, i fall of my bed, rush to on the lights to check again. I flip over my blankets( i always had 2), Thn saw the cockroach about the fly up but fail. In like 0.1 sec i rush to my parents room, ask my father help me catch cockroach in the middle of the night. The look on my father's face was like, wtf? Cockroach nia. Thn he help me catch liao thn throw away. LOL Okay thats the funny story.
For lizard, i dun really have any story, its from very young i jiu scare liao, okay i bet everyone had something they are scare naturally.
If someone was to ask me if i'm scare of ghost and stuff. 1st i want to say, i actually believe in ghost. If i would to see 1, yes i will be scare, but i'm still able to walk in the dark by myself. But if u bring me to those themepark haunted house, yes i will be scared.
Believe it or not, i used to be fking scare in the dark, even with ppl around. whenever i sleep, i must have a mini light on. All the way until p6 or sec 1 i think, until my mini light spoil. Okay i dunno is used to it for having light or just scare of the dark. Reason i had the light is i rmb i always seen shadow like moving like that.(It was actually the eyes adjusting to the darkness)
So now i'm actually okay in walking in darkness by myself.
Got this scout camp during when i'm sec 3. Only got 4 of us jr, Me, bryan, matt and 1 more sec 2 jr(i forgot his name). So its organised by my senior. LOL i noe 4 only like pathetic only. So at the 2nd night, there is they called "The Confident Walk" Sounds cool huh? Its actually just go to macritchie reservoir and walk the path alone. Without lights and anything. Just yourself, walk. The seniors are the check points, there are 5. I'm the second 1 to walk since matt need to go home 1st. So the funny thing is, as i walk, after like 10 mins, i haven reach any of my senior yet, like wtf? thn later i saw, my 1st check point. The 1st thing the came in my mind was not like "Heng ar, i tot i lost" and rather "Wapiang eh? So long thn check point 1? Fuck siao liao la" Sooooo, Total Walking time, 40+ fking min alone in the forest walking... LIKE WTF? U serious? The path they planned is so fucking long, that even 1 walk also not scare liao, its like "Endurance Walk". And apparently, I only reached 4 checkpoint, why? Coz the senior at the 4th checkpoint went to shit. -.-
So this tradition like pass down, every year camp will go at least once( i hope its still passing down)
So it actually change to become a 10min walk after my batch. So as i become the senior, we still need to participate, as check point. I rmb i'm the second checkpoint. Scared? NO! Its DAMN FKING SIAN. Alone in the forest FOR 40 FKING MIN AGAIN! AS A CHECK POINT! Wtf man.
Public speaking. Somehow, i'm still quite scare of presenting in front of everyone. I rmb sec 3, need to present about our own chosen career. So i'm the 3rd 1 to present in 32 ppl -.-. Honestly my presentation is just a plain simple and fast 1. Dun even have 10min. 3min can settle everything. So apparently, Being the 1st few, there are somehow invited guest from MOE? And i rmb this lady from MOE at the back comer of the room(Sit there like purposely want ppl to talk loudly) ask a lot of Jiaowei qns. And that's not the problem, the problem is, She HERSELF, TALK SO FKING SOFT!? I'm like HUH 3 times liao, i really cannot hear what she ask(plus i got a bit deaf ear), thn i ask andrew. I rmb during that time, i really panic, coz the project worth a lot of marks, and my english kao that 1 liao. ANNNDDDDD In the end i still failed -.- Like WTF? I think i'm the only 1 that fail this fking project lor. Up to now i still think is that MOE lady fault -.-
Lastly, i dunno if this counts, but i really cannot stand blood, or rather, ppl kana torture to death. E.g the movie SAW. I rmb sec 2, after exams, the teacher showed us this movie, coz classmate say want. So this is my 1st gore movie. Its was really shocking to me, i somehow didn't feel like puking, but i that my eyes closed most of the time, I rmb the 1st scene was this person tied down, a swinging blade just Cut him slowly in half. Like WTF? Seriously disturbing and i even couldn't sleep for nights. I really dunno how is this kind of show fun to watch. Its just plain killing and not even normal stab in your stomach kill, ITS FREAKING TORTURE! If its ghost movie, got blood i still understand, But this is just kill for the joy and fun, and some ppl actually enjoy it? I dun understand. Oh, and gore anime are different, dun ever mix anime and real life tgt, thanks.
Yup, these are a few things i'm scare of. I dun normally share this with ppl, but i just blog it coz i'm bored and this topic came in my mind.
Thursday 6 September 2012
A new power
So, ytd i had a awesome dream, yes its a dream post again. In this dream, i got another new supernatural power!
So this power allows me to control electric. Not that i could shoot out electric from my hands or whatever. Its just can alter things that works with electric. So i was in this arcade, some machines are not working, so i change the flow of electric into the machine so i could play. And the game is something like mariokart, Just a big different and more high tech.
And 1 more ability is to change the ground/wall surface into some magnetic field so i could repel myself up and i could attract myself to metal stuff. And i could enter wire path(those wire u seen around building) and quickly transfer to another part of the building. This happened coz i was disturbing my friend when he was riding his bike, i change the metal part of the paddle into magnet so he couldn't ride. And he chase after me for revenge. Some sort he was damn fast, almost teleporting. Yea escaping again, and i got this power.
So this power allows me to control electric. Not that i could shoot out electric from my hands or whatever. Its just can alter things that works with electric. So i was in this arcade, some machines are not working, so i change the flow of electric into the machine so i could play. And the game is something like mariokart, Just a big different and more high tech.
And 1 more ability is to change the ground/wall surface into some magnetic field so i could repel myself up and i could attract myself to metal stuff. And i could enter wire path(those wire u seen around building) and quickly transfer to another part of the building. This happened coz i was disturbing my friend when he was riding his bike, i change the metal part of the paddle into magnet so he couldn't ride. And he chase after me for revenge. Some sort he was damn fast, almost teleporting. Yea escaping again, and i got this power.
Wednesday 5 September 2012
Robots + OC2(Random drawings 5)
If ppl ask me, "What is ur goal in life?" I dun think i really have any goals in life. But i do have unrealistic goals. One of them is to build a robot. From young, i always like robots, coz i think they are like very cool. There are a lot types of robots. But what i really like is those like human like that, means got arms got legs. Not necessary need to look like human. Like android.
So i got this unrealistic goal which is to build a robot, which have its own mind and feelings, can move on its own. It will be like a small chibi robot. Thn can follow me around. Purpose? Hmm.. Help me carry stuff? Hahahaha. Its just like u seen in anime those robots that follows the person around, speak, and do chores.
Here's another random drawings of robot. The concept came from Chachazero from the manga mahou sensei negima.
So, from 1st, 2nd, 3rd of left to right. Which do u think u will choose? Personally i will choose the 2nd 1.
Tuesday 4 September 2012
Dreamworld
Yes, this is another rdm topic about dreams again. Few days ago was chatting with shaw and jas about dreams. We were sharing our experiences in our own dream world, and jas suggested that maybe that dreamworld is really another world that exist. Somehow, i believe in it, or rather, i was hoping it really exist. I mean, wouldn't that dreamworld would be a more interesting world than the actual world here? Okay maybe not for those who always having nightmares.
What if one could really be aware of the dreamworld, and actually do stuff like, maybe study? That's like so awesome! Imagine u can actually practice whatever u want in the dreamworld, and in the actual world u really improve. That's is so timesaving and at the same time u regain energy!!
And jas shared this story about researcher experiment, 2 ppl who dunno each other at all and they both can lucid dream, they decided to meet in the same place in the dreamworld and do stuff tgt. When they woke up, they both explained the same thing! That's like WOW!!
Imagine you and ur friends had no time to meet up or do outings in the actual world, all we had to do is to sleep at night and meet in the dreamworld!
Okay this topic may be a bit wtf, but i'm just entertaining myself here since i had nothing to do. Maybe i should go and daydream now.
What if one could really be aware of the dreamworld, and actually do stuff like, maybe study? That's like so awesome! Imagine u can actually practice whatever u want in the dreamworld, and in the actual world u really improve. That's is so timesaving and at the same time u regain energy!!
And jas shared this story about researcher experiment, 2 ppl who dunno each other at all and they both can lucid dream, they decided to meet in the same place in the dreamworld and do stuff tgt. When they woke up, they both explained the same thing! That's like WOW!!
Imagine you and ur friends had no time to meet up or do outings in the actual world, all we had to do is to sleep at night and meet in the dreamworld!
Okay this topic may be a bit wtf, but i'm just entertaining myself here since i had nothing to do. Maybe i should go and daydream now.
Given up on PS3
Just as the title says, i had given up on buying a ps3. Why? Coz mum say is a fking waste of money lor. Even is buy the console liao, the games also need money. Yes la, all is money problem. I know ppl keep telling me to go work. But i think work liao, my mum will say the same thing like save up the money for future use or whatever. And yes, my family is very very poor. Financial problem from pri to sec. For ppl who ask me to save my pocket money to buy? Sry, i dun have much pocket money either.
From young, its really really damn fking hard to get my parents to buy a electronic game console. Got my 1st gameboy at pri 4 after i dunno how much i begged, and a pokemon cartage as my very 1st game. Thn, like my english naturally no good 1, read how many books also seriously cmi. Thn mum take away my gameboy say after end of year exam thn return. Like Whuutttt?? And i rmb my only toy was lego. Yeah it pei me all the way to sec 1 thn my mum throw away. Thn i forgot how long i beg for a new cartage, and got megaman.
PSP was more easy to get, as i said i will be using my own money(Ang bao money) to buy, and they ask me what about the game, i said they can be downloaded so its free! So they agree. But still need wait like half a year? Got my PSP ard sec 2.
And this is the only 2 game console i ever had. Yeah so now i got laptop, might well just play Blackshot, or watch anime for the rest of my life. No point getting a PS3 anymore.
From young, its really really damn fking hard to get my parents to buy a electronic game console. Got my 1st gameboy at pri 4 after i dunno how much i begged, and a pokemon cartage as my very 1st game. Thn, like my english naturally no good 1, read how many books also seriously cmi. Thn mum take away my gameboy say after end of year exam thn return. Like Whuutttt?? And i rmb my only toy was lego. Yeah it pei me all the way to sec 1 thn my mum throw away. Thn i forgot how long i beg for a new cartage, and got megaman.
PSP was more easy to get, as i said i will be using my own money(Ang bao money) to buy, and they ask me what about the game, i said they can be downloaded so its free! So they agree. But still need wait like half a year? Got my PSP ard sec 2.
And this is the only 2 game console i ever had. Yeah so now i got laptop, might well just play Blackshot, or watch anime for the rest of my life. No point getting a PS3 anymore.
Can't sleep!!!
I really can't sleep!!!!! Feel so fucking irritated now!! Mind is filled is a lot of different thoughts! I WANT TO EAT SLEEPING PILLS SO I CAN GO GO SLEEP BUT I DUN HAVE SLEEPING PILLS!!!!
ARGHHHHHG!!!!! DUNNO WHY, BUT I FEEL SO FKING ANGRY NOW COZ I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!
CAN I LIKE SMASH THE FAN FOR BEING SO FKING NOISY JUST NOW!?
NVR SLEEP IN THE AFTERNOON ALSO! WHY I CANNOT SLEEP NOW!?!? SERIOUSLY ANGRY SIA!!
I WANT TO SLEEP!!!
ARGHHHHHG!!!!! DUNNO WHY, BUT I FEEL SO FKING ANGRY NOW COZ I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!
CAN I LIKE SMASH THE FAN FOR BEING SO FKING NOISY JUST NOW!?
NVR SLEEP IN THE AFTERNOON ALSO! WHY I CANNOT SLEEP NOW!?!? SERIOUSLY ANGRY SIA!!
I WANT TO SLEEP!!!
Wj bday
Okay, I'm blogging at a freaking 4am coz I just can't sleep. Just fuck la -.-
So today we celebrated wei jian bday. We had it celebrated earlier. Went to rw stall. Got a prank pandan cake for him. Not much reaction except he was happy to see Seng hwee here too. Gave him a bday card with lots of awesome moment in it. After eating dinner, the real ice cream cake was served. Same with no reaction on his face. Aiya I think is like so expected also. So eat the cake Liao. Chatted about a lot of stuff, mainly their stories of relationships. Thn went home.
Here's some pic
So today we celebrated wei jian bday. We had it celebrated earlier. Went to rw stall. Got a prank pandan cake for him. Not much reaction except he was happy to see Seng hwee here too. Gave him a bday card with lots of awesome moment in it. After eating dinner, the real ice cream cake was served. Same with no reaction on his face. Aiya I think is like so expected also. So eat the cake Liao. Chatted about a lot of stuff, mainly their stories of relationships. Thn went home.
Here's some pic
Monday 3 September 2012
Saturday 1 September 2012
Holiday plans
Now i'm having holiday for 6 weeks. Unlike others, i do not have camp, or go oversea or job. So i'm some what very free for this holiday.
A lot ppl tell me to find a job. Actually i was thinking of just go back my cousin's office to help, but after thinking i got ITP(industrial training programme) for my nxt 6 weeks holiday, i think i'm going do things which i wanted to do.
Things that i want to do in this holiday
-Try to learn japanese
-Learn how to make onigiri(which i tried and i wan to prefect it)
-Learn to draw manga/anime
-Do more exercise(be it gym or going MMA)
-Complete watching Clannad, and anime i couldn't watch coz wasted time studying
-Complete playing Blazblue, AC1, Fate stay night.
-Complete reading Yankee-kun to Megane-chan and Mahou sensei Negima
-At least 1 dinner tgt with the sec sch friends
-At least 1 outing tgt with the sec sch friends
-One day shop for new Tshirts
-Go to Zixing house play guitar hero
-Go to Shawleong house to play naruto
-Go Ruwen house sit sit
-Persuade my parents to buy PS3
-Wish for money to drop down from the sky
They are listed from the most-least impt. The top 7 will be my own personal stuff, so it will be spread across the holiday. While the rest involves other ppl, so it doesn't matter if its completed anot.
Hope i have a productive holiday. AND CHEERS FOR HOLIDAY!!!!
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A lot ppl tell me to find a job. Actually i was thinking of just go back my cousin's office to help, but after thinking i got ITP(industrial training programme) for my nxt 6 weeks holiday, i think i'm going do things which i wanted to do.
Things that i want to do in this holiday
-Try to learn japanese
-Learn how to make onigiri(which i tried and i wan to prefect it)
-Learn to draw manga/anime
-Do more exercise(be it gym or going MMA)
-Complete watching Clannad, and anime i couldn't watch coz wasted time studying
-Complete playing Blazblue, AC1, Fate stay night.
-Complete reading Yankee-kun to Megane-chan and Mahou sensei Negima
-At least 1 dinner tgt with the sec sch friends
-At least 1 outing tgt with the sec sch friends
-One day shop for new Tshirts
-Go to Zixing house play guitar hero
-Go to Shawleong house to play naruto
-Go Ruwen house sit sit
-Persuade my parents to buy PS3
-Wish for money to drop down from the sky
They are listed from the most-least impt. The top 7 will be my own personal stuff, so it will be spread across the holiday. While the rest involves other ppl, so it doesn't matter if its completed anot.
Hope i have a productive holiday. AND CHEERS FOR HOLIDAY!!!!
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